Yup, I’m unhappy. I’ve been like it for a veeery long time. It’s hard for me emotionally always. I sometimes feel great about everything but the next day no more. I’m a normal gal, I go to a great school, I’m very social, I’m a high achiever. But, I want to do something more like I have already mentioned previously in some other post.
And you know what? I will. I said I would but I haven’t done shit and it’s just lowering me every day even more and more.
I want to finally do things that I’ve always wanted to do. I want to do things without anybody telling me what to do. I want to do things on my own, with my own permission. I will need help of course and I will ask for it, and I know exactly who can help me.
I just can’t believe it. I’ve had the right people here to always help me and I know they will so, why not just start and do it all?
I want to grow, I want to fulfill myself and others. I want to in general, feel and be happy.
It’s always been one of my ambitions anyways. I’ve always wanted to feel that accomplishment and I will feel it and I will keep it with me.
So uh yeah that’s it really. I just felt like saying all this ‘cuz I’ve been feeling very very down lately. Writing things down has always helped me so I chose to write this post, even though I already wrote a whole complete paragraph on my notebook on what I want to do. It’s always so hard for me to open up about how I feel.
Heeelllooo my lovelies! Today I bring you a quick post about piercings!
So part of my new wishes to do on this blog is beauty. Now, when it comes to beauty and fashion I got quite a taste. That includes, piercings.
I think we all went through a phase where we wanted to have a thousand piercings or, at least, some for a pair of earrings. In my case, oh boy.
So, the only part of my body that is pierced are my ears: I used to have 3 piercings on each ear, but, the third one closed up so now I have 2 ear piercings on each year, in total, 4. The first ear piercing which is on my earlobes were done when I was just months old, so, I don’t even remember that one. The other two piercings, were done in quite a brutal way by a non-professional (please go to a professional).
When I was about 11 years old I decided to get my ears pierced so I would have two ear piercings on each year: The original ones on my earlobes and the next one on my upper earlobe. The thing is, it hurt like hell. My piercer used a piercing gun which is this thing of hell that shoves an earring right through your ear in high pressure and it hurts like a butt cheek on a stick. Get it? Vine reference? No? Okay.
The worst thing is that right after I got my ears pierced it swelled up and burned too much and it stayed that way for two days. In the end, I couldn’t take it. I couldn’t even sleep from the pain so I decided to take them out which is when I noticed that the earring was like…crusting up with my ear. I got scared, cried, and my dad took them out for me.
And that was it! That is why you should always take care of your piercings, boys and girls!
2 years later, now in Mexico, I decide to get them pierced again but this time get two ear piercings so I would have the 3 in each ear. My momma and I went down to the city fair at the city of Jojutla (RIP) in which a young boy and his friends had a piercing and tattooing booth. We bought the gold earrings to avoid infections and the boy sat me down behind the booth, numbed my ear using these things of metal shown to the side here, grabbed one of the earrings, took the back part out and shoved the earring RIGHT through my ear.
I could hear it cracking through my ears! 😀 And it burned and stung a little. It took no more than 10 seconds for each earring to go through my ear and that was it! The great thing about it is that this time it did not swell up, and it only felt hot afterwards. This time I actually took care of my ear piercings and they healed up just fine!
Note: I didn’t go to a professional, nor a professional pierce shop or anything. If you want to get a job done, go to a professional please!
And I loved them! The sad thing is that the third ear piercings closed up so…now I have two ear piercings on each ear.
Anyways, I love piercings. I think they look great, they look elegant to me in a way, as same with tattoos. Why? I don’t know, but they just look sophisticated to me, of course, when it’s not too extreme or over-exaggerated! That is…except if your Grace Neutral.
Same with stretching your earlobes. I think they look cool, they catch attention. I wouldn’t do it on myself though..at least not anymore. Yup, I was getting my ears stretched out but I didn’t get to stretch them further than 2 millimeters because of school and my ears went right back to normal, although there was barely any difference.
I used to always want to get my lips pierced, I think they look quite beautiful, especially snake bites, Monroe piercing, Dahlia bites and the Medusa Piercing. Those to me look the best. I also had the desire for a septum piercing but, I don’t think it’ll look good on me.
Now, for those of you who don’t know, you can also get piercings kinda like….in your skin. As in, dermal piercings! This is when you get a little gemstone or whatever inserted into a part of your body such as your wrist, collar bones, neck, etc. These are quite extravagant but also look very beautiful.
buuut no piercing is way more extravagant than getting a corset piercing…*shivers*
Now, don’t get me wrong. I do think that these corset piercings look fucking amazing, they are very creative and take their time to be done. From what I’ve read though, they only last one day. Is it worth the pain? That’s up to you.
Sooo yeah I think that’s it for now haha. I just felt like doing this post for fun, so, not really informative or anything. I do plan on writing a post on this but for now, this is it!
Right now I have no desires to get anything pierced, except maybe my ears again but that’ll be in the future.
Merry Christmas to all of you! This year I had a very unique Christmas, which is worth writing about and sharing on my blog.
As many of you know (or don’t know), I live in Mexico. I have been living here for 5 years. I love it here. 🙂 Anyways, my sister’s elementary school is free for the kids that assist this local orphanage, meaning that children who live there can go to school there. In one of my sister’s class is a girl from that orphanage, who happens to be my sister’s best friend. We decided to visit her orphanage and pick her up so that she could spend Christmas with my family, become her foster family for a few days.
We went to her orphanage yesterday and we were greeted by lots of kids from there. To be honest, it broke my heart.
I have worked with children in the past, but those kids had someone that loved them and cared for them, but yesterday I was faced with another reality: Child abandonment.
In that orphanage are children who were taken away from their parents because of child abuse and neglect, children who were abandoned, children who’s own parents took them there because they didn’t have the economic resources and even kids who are there by their own will, as in, ran away from home.
Toddlers, kids, teenagers. All together living there. I have never visited such a place, which is why I felt very sad being there.
Kids are kids. What fault do they have in this world to be born different, or to just be born in general? I understand those who couldn’t take care financially of their kids, but the rest, why? Why throw away an innocent baby? Why abuse them? It is such a shame to me.
In my culture we do not get presents on Christmas. Last time I got a present on Christmas was when I was in the United States as in, 5 years ago. But yesterday that we went, Raul, a Mentally disabled child, gave me and my sisters each a hand written card.
It was our Christmas gift from him to us.
And it’s the best gift I have ever received.
The simplest things in life can make a very big difference. Always cherish and enjoy what you have because there are people in the world who do not have much and despite not having much, they are still very, very happy. Like the children in the orphanage. It is very heartwarming to see that those kids find happiness in the little that they have, and that they are filled with so much joy and love.
Remember to always receive and give love and remember that in the end, you don’t need the fancy, expensive things on Christmas to spend a great time. Have a proclivity for work, but also try to have one for those who can’t, for those who depend on others.
I have learned to appreciate that, and I hope that many people out there can too. 🙂
I will be visiting the Orphanage again soon with my family, as we will be bringing them gifts and some food for them to celebrate El Dia de los Reyes Magos on January 6th, which is the holiday in which children of Mexico receive presents.
For a year I wrote stories and short non-rhyming poems on this blog but lately I started to feel like it doesn’t make me happy anymore. I want to renovate this blog, do something more on it. I haven’t written on this blog for about a month, and I used to post regularly. I am sorry for not being able to keep up with this but it’s because I just do not know what to write on here.
So I took a time out, and just now I have finally decided what I want to do on this blog. I do plan on writing stories and poems still, but I will also be doing even more.
What will I be doing?
So, in order to determine what I wanted I pulled together a list of what I love:
And that’s exactly what I’ll be doing. Fashion, makeup, photos, music and art. I want to post lookbooks, pictures of places, people and things, review more music, post arts and crafts, DIY’s in general, drawings, etc.
This blog will take a turn in direction and it is for the good.
I also plan to start a youtube channel very soon! So stay tune for all of that as well. 🙂
Please follow me on my social media which I will be updating more frequently as well. I will be dedicating my extra time on this blog and in what I want. So please, support me through! 🙂
It has been 2 months since we last saw each other.
It is such a long time but it doesn’t feel like it.
I miss you every single day that I wake up, though.
I feel you close but I don’t see you anywhere.
And I ask myself, why?
I wonder as I gaze to the sky.
Where are you right now?
What are you doing?
I know that we both share the same sky and it’s stars.
But ever since you left, the sky has even more stars than ever.
I visit the last place that I saw you in every now and then.
Everything is gone.
All of our memories together are nothing but that: Memories.
All of our favorite places, our names that we graffitied at the park.
It’s all gone.
I visit town hall, where you last stood.
Before time took you away from me forever.
I now look up and remember that clock that stood there at town hall.
It is no longer there and I hope to never see it again.
Oh how I hate it.
In the end, I shrug.
And I turn my back to the place where you last stood in.
Stepping into all the sludge left behind.
I know that somewhere up above there you are.
Along with everybody else that was with you on that day.
Yesterday marked 2 months after the tragedy.
And although things are getting better,
Although things will be rebuilt,
The city that I once knew and cherished will be gone forever.
Along with you.
Even though I know that things will go back to normal,
Your memory still resonates in me.
And it haunts me.
Along with the memory of all the other people screaming and running all around me.
As the world crumbles around us.
I love you, and I love you all.
We will see each other some day, but till then…
Shall that faithful day resonate in my dreams forever.
Dedicated to my dear city of Jojutla, Morelos in Mexico and all the victims of mother nature on Tuesday, September 19th, 2017. This is specially dedicated to a neighbor of mine, who was killed by the clock at Town Hall and to her husband, which spends his days in mourn. May she, him and their child and everybody else that lost their lives rest in peace.
And may all of us who witnessed such a tragedy find peace within ourselves.