YouTube Crisis: Freedom of Speech

*Warning: this is me giving my opinion and my thoughts and all of that, if you are those type of people who disagree with stuff and are too sensitive towards people giving their opinion, criticism and all that then I kindly ask you now, to leave. If you are cool with it then go ahead keep reading*

Alright I know this might not even be a big deal but honestly, to me it is. YouTube has always been my source of main entertainment and helped me out through so many dark times, all the youtubers and videos on there helped me discover that I still have hopes and helped me stay strong, mostly when I went through my suicide attempt and when I used to do self harm, yes, I attempted suicide and yes, I used to slit my wrist. I would hide all my scars under a million bracelets which made them unnoticeable.

I eventually came to an end after realizing what I was doing to myself was pathetic and worthless. I never told anyone about this or my suicide attempt. And you know who helped me? A very controversial and very hated youtuber known as: Onision. Yep, the very hated Onision doesn’t support self harm and has made multiple videos to show people that self harm is not a good thing but in his own way and yes, I do enjoy satire comedy. And yes of course also many places on the internet helped me out. The internet is a place where I feel happy, where I can speak freely and have no worries. I love it. Especially YouTube. But I guess that my freedom of speech on YouTube may change.

YouTube is my most favorite social platform and I will soon be uploading vlog videos but with skits and comedy ūüėČ stay tuned for that as I am working on my social networks so that you can stalk me? D;

With this all said, there are many things happening on YouTube right now, so why not let you guys know what’s going on?

No Freedom of Speech: Apparently, YouTube has added new rules, one of these being “No harassment or cyber bullying” which I am not against, but this is where the problem comes: They are taking down videos and banning youtubers who give their opinion and/or criticism. Yup, freedom of speech on YouTube will no longer be so “free”. Of course I agree with the no harassment and cyber bullying that is great I love that, but what I don’t like in any way is that they as in YouTube, are taking down videos and channels in which people give out their criticism and/or opinion on other people/videos. Now, some of these channels do use satire comedy and offensive humor and if you don’t know what satire means:

Satire is commonly defined as a literary genre in which comedic forms, as well as ridicule and exaggeration, are used to focus on human weakness and societal problems. Comedic satire also appears in film, poetry and television.


Youtuber Leafyishere makes videos on videos that his fans send in or that he finds by himself that are usually pretty dumb, stupid, ridiculous, racist, sexist, things that make you triggered, etc. and he gives out his OPINION and CRITICISM which by my knowledge, there is nothing wrong with that and it is freedom of speech. Well, he uses satire and offensive humor but always states out in all his videos to NOT go and hate on anybody, to not go and “witch hunt” any of the people who are talked about. Same with youtuber Onision who does the same, he always states out that the videos are made for the sake of comedy and if you are sensitive to offensive humor, then don’t watch. These type of videos/ channels are being considered Hate speech when in reality, they are not saying “YO GO HATE ON THIS PERSON” Nope, all they’re doing is giving their opinion but in their own way ya know? I guess that some people don’t understand offensive comedy/ satire and are triggered too easily. Of course not all of these channels use the same type of comedic ways.

But YouTube doesn’t care and considers these videos and channels to be bad really bad. From my understanding even channels who don’t even use offensive humor or satire like Philip DeFranco can get banned. Yup, him, he is a very decent guy never says anything offensive nope all he does is give us his opinion and criticism on news on the internet and drama without saying anything offensive and/or insulting. Even youtubers who have made parodies of big youtubers are getting banned.

….I don’t know maybe I am a bad person for watching these type of videos? I don’t even know what to think anymore.

I am happy with the no harassment or cyber bullying, but not with lots of small channels disappearing or their videos getting taken down and receiving strikes due to just 1 little 10 minute video where they give out there opinion over someone or something, that’s not freedom of speech, yo. But you know what is allowed on YouTube? Porn.Yup, You can literally find porn on YouTube and nothing will happen if it’s under the “educational” category. Bitch, I don’t remember graphic porn and hentai as being educational. I understand those doctor videos and stuff about the human body with nudity yeah that’s k but how come there are porn videos under the educational category not being flagged or taken down? Not even age restricted but those other videos are getting flagged and stuff? I don’t even know anymore.

*All credit goes to all the people mentioned in this post. I own nothing but my opinion lul, maybe I should start a rant channel, too ūüėÄ ….Yeah, no.*

*All rights reserved to YouTube and Google and I don’t know what else just please don’t sue me I don’t have the money*

I am mad I am mad I AM SO MAD-woaaah! Chill!

Time Flies

5:30 a.m. 

Time for school!

1:10 p.m.

Time to go home!

4:00 p.m. 

Time for homework!

6:00 p.m. 

Time for a shower!

9:00 p.m. 

Time to check the expiration date on the milk!

11:00 p.m. 

Time to go to bed!

5:30 a.m. 

Time to repeat the cycle once more.

But you know what? Who has time to go to school?

5:31 a.m. 

Time to start living! 

1:10 p.m. 

Who has time to travel 45 minutes from school to home?

4:00 p.m. 

Who has time for homework?

6:00 p.m. 

Who has time for a shower? I showered yesterday..

8:00 p.m. 

Internet! I have time for that!

11:00 p.m. 

Who has time for sleep nowadays?

12:30 p.m. 

Who has time to wake up early?

3:54 p.m.

Who has time to check expiration dates?

5:00 p.m. 

Who has time to go out with friends?

8:00 p.m. 

Who has time to go outside?

11:52 p.m.

1:23 a.m.

5:00 a.m. 

9:00 p.m.

12:30 a.m.

13:13 p.m.




24:00 a.m. 

Oh dear, I forgot what day it is a long time ago. Now that I think about it, what day is it?

01:14 a.m. 

Checked my phone, but it won’t turn on.

01:16 a.m. 

Checked my PC…I can’t believe how much time has gone by….


02:02 a.m. 

My skin is so pale and dry…

2:10 a.m.

My eyes are so tired…

2:30 a.m.

I can’t feel anything.

09:00 a.m.

Who has time to wake up this late?

9:30 a.m. 

Who has time for not to shower?

10:15 a.m. 

Who has time to open the window curtains??

10:16 a.m.

…. I do.

10:17 a.m. 

Who has time to cry on such a lovely day?

10:20 a.m. 

Oh wait…what time is it?

10:23 a.m. 

Looks like I forgot to live…

10:40 a.m. 

Who has time to live?

11:00 a.m. 

I have time to live.

And no time to waste.

Not anymore.

Tick tock tick tock goes the clock clock, have you ever wondered what you are doing with your life? Go out and enjoy the world! There is such a big world out there but such a small life. So why don’t you go out there, and make that life of yours last forever? Do what you love, and do it with passion. Do all the things you want to do, go to all the places you wanna go, adopt a dog, start a family, be rich, travel the world, learn to sing or dance or draw, start a business I don’t know, just do something that you love and aspire to do.

Remember that time goes away fast. Don’t waste it. Because every second that passes, will never come back.




colorful rosesThe purity of a white rose.

So beautiful, so delicate, so young and bright.

The purity of a beautiful white rose, sitting lonely in the sun.

What a perfect gift for such a beautiful innocent woman.

How the rose is now changing colors.

How the rose is now turning yellow.

The cheerfulness of a yellow rose.

So happy, so cheerful, so full of joy.

How the rose changes with a laugh.

What a perfect gift for such a gorgeous smile on a woman.

How the rose is now changing colors again.

How the rose is turning pink.

The cuteness of a pink rose.

So cute, so playful, so graceful.

How the rose changes with every soft caress.

What a perfect gift for a gentle woman.

How it changes colors once again.

How it gradually turns red.

The intensity of a red rose.

So seductive, so passionate, so sensual.

How the rose changes with every kiss.

What a perfect gift as an invitation for a woman.

How it changes colors again.

How the rose turns purple.

The nostalgia of a purple rose.

So nostalgic, filled with memories of when we were young.

How the rose changes with every memory.

What a perfect gift for a woman who loves photography.

How it changes colors one more time.

The maternity of an orange rose.

So little, so filled with love, a reflection of me and you.

How the rose grew with every drop of water we gave it.

How it changes colors once more.

How the rose is turning blue.

The sadness of a blue rose.

So beautiful, but so sad, so lonely.

How the rose changes with every tear.

What a perfect gift as a good bye to a woman and her family.

How it changes colors, one last time.

How the rose turns black.

The mystery of a black rose.

So mysterious, so curious, so depressing.

How the rose changes with every blink of an eye.

What a perfect gift for an old woman, to remind her of time.

The black rose, though.

How it shifts colors.

The life of a colorful rose.

So vivid, so colorful, so bright.

How the rose, never changed.

What a perfect gift, to welcome her back into my arms.

The beauty of water dripping down onto the petals of a rose in the rain.

How they drop onto the petals so majestically.

A symbol of innocence, of love, of life, of happiness, of sadness, of depression, of time.

A beautiful rose, that I gifted to her.

A beautiful rose, that I gave to her to mark every stage in our lives together.

Each of them, different from one another.

In her eyes, I saw my life reflected.

She, was my Rose.

My Rosa.


The image is from etsy:

Remember to live your life to the fullest. Enjoy it and be happy. There will be ups and downs, but you’ll get through.

Hope you enjoyed!




I Will Go Down with this Ship.

~*Please note that his has nothing to do with boats. It has to do with the amazing world of the internet. .~* 

” I will go down with this ship”

                                                                   -Dan Howell, a.k.a. Danisnotonfire.

I have something to admit. I ship people. Now, if you don’t know what this means, then run and don’t ever come back. Don’t ever look back just, go. Hurry before you can never leave again.

Alright with that being said here it is:

Ship: When you want two people to be in a relationship, usually fictional characters or celebrities/When you like the idea of a romantic relationship in between two fictional ¬† characters and/or celebrities.¬†People who “Ship” their favorite characters from shows or favorite celebrities are usually part of fandom’s. Great, now I gotta explain what a fandom is.

Fandom: It’s when you’re a fan of someone or something, so you like, join in with the others fans of this person or thing. Together you create, a fandom. ‚̧

I know it may not make sense but, trust me. Once you join a fandom, you will see. So, for example, most of the Friends fandom ( Friends is a show by the way, i’m pretty sure you know this. If not, then oh well.) used to ship Rachel and Ross. Well, that ship no longer exist since in the end they got together so, the Rachel and Ross shippers can die in peace now.

So, you may be asking, who do you ship? Well, my most favorite ship that makes me just die a little inside is Phan. Dan Howell + Phil Lester= Phan. Shippers of Phan are also known as the “Phandom”. And here I present to you another important component of shipping characters. The name of the ship is usually a mixture of the two characters names for example the Phandom which is Dan+Phil. Phan. We also have Harry Styles and Louis Tomlinson from the popular boy band One Direction which Harry+Louis create the ship name of “Larry”. Now, lots of people can ship themselves with a character, person, celebrity whatever. I ship myself with Dan Howell. I discovered my first ship when I used to ship Rin Kagamine with Len Kagamine. I mean hey, technically no one knows if they’re related. Crypton Future Media just said that they can be whatever the fans want them to be SO ITS NOT WEIRD.

Now, you may ask yourself: Why do people do this?

I don’t know. It just happens.

Another popular question is: Do these relationships even exist?

Well, sometimes it’s like an impossible love that’s there, it can be two best friends who don’t see the romance in between them but their fans do, maybe they don’t accept their love because to them it may not exist but to the public it does and blah blah blah it’s just a huge explosion.

You may also ask yourself: How does it happen?

Well, it can happen whether you seeing it with your own eyes and feeling the intense love between two persons or fictional characters or whatever or you might find out about it through internet, friends or family. Now, Shipping also includes….Fanfiction.

Oh no. Not the fanfics.

Fanfiction: A fictional love story that can have a theme to it or not written by fans of a certain fandom in which the two people who are being shipped are the main protagonist and usually involves hot steamy sex.

I can’t lie to you. Usually, if a fanfic doesn’t involve anything erotic then kissing and hugs and/or cute stuff and scenarios will do. But once again, I can’t lie to you. Most fans of a fandom prefer a fanfic that involves some sexy time in between the characters. Some fanfics are good, some are interesting, some are fantastic, others are boring, some are erotic, some are cute, some are sad and others are just plain “What the fuck”.

And no. Not every single one of a fandom member is perverted.

So, with this said, it is very hard to run away from this. Once you join a fandom, you will never leave. Unless if you grow out of it or discover a new fandom. But it will haunt you, and once you discover a ship in between some other t.v. show characters like I don’t know, Doctor Who or something ( Which by the way, it does exist) then you can move on. Just remember that there is a fandom for every celebrity, Youtuber, show, cartoon, movie, musicians, everything.

even you…ship yourself with someone.

Unless if you’re a normal human being that lives a happy and normal life and actually goes outside instead of staying home refreshing your Tumblr dashboard for more gifs and fan art of your most favorite impossible love that is obviously there existing in between these two characters.

awe great now I have to explain what fan art is.

Fan Art: Fan drawings of their favorite show or person or whatever. Don’t forget the fan service.

Fan Service: Material in a work of fiction or in a fictional series which is intentionally added to please the audience.

I need to go outside.

So yeaaaah! “Shipping” is pretty normal. It’s like sending away your favorite couple on a nice and lovely, romantic voyage…which was today’s daily prompt.

The City Within Me

There is a city within me, within my eyes it reflects. There is a city within me, where everything is perfect. Where my alter ego can live happily.There is a city within me, where violence is not real, where equality rules and everybody is always happy. There is a city within me, where colors reflect onto my brown skin and wind blows into my red hair as I walk through the cities five star clothing boutiques and restaurants that are affordable to anyone and libraries filled with the essence of old books and music of all kind play on the streets. There is a city within me, where no one judges and money is nothing but a piece of paper that kids use to play around in school with. There is a city within me where love doesn’t care about gender, religion, looks, anything. There is a city within me, where love is not a fear. Love is beautiful and comes in many styles, shapes, colors and sizes. I want to be part of this city forever, but I may only visit it in my imagination at certain times, mostly when I sleep. I dream about it, what a perfect world. There is no such thing as racism, hunger, poorness, richness, discrimination, violence, there is no such thing as fear in this city.¬†There is a city within me, where night clubs are places where people of all kinds can go and dance. Dance in circles, dance wildly, dance without a single thought and be filled with energy and joy. A place where you can be you and share it with other people. Dance around with strangers who are your friends at the same time. Dance like if it’s a ritual. Where you can experience sexuality and love. All of this is in this city. I wonder if this will ever become reality, but I doubt it. I guess that the world is what we make it, isn’t it? And with the world, the cities that we visit, that we live in, that we grow up in. To me, all cities are beautiful. I love all the lights and the colors, and in cities I feel safe surrounded by many people of all different types. The sad thing is, that behind all those city lights hides the truth. But then again…there is no such thing as perfect. There is always something that ruins it. What is perfect without corruption? This, is reality.

There is a city within me, where I am happy.


I hope you enjoyed this! This was inspired by the recent Orlando shooting events and is dedicated to all those who lost their lives or were injured in the shooting that took place on June 12th in Orlando, Florida at a gay bar and also dedicated to Christina Grimmie a.k.a. Zeldaxlove64 who was a singer and Youtuber who died at the age of 22 this past June 10th who was murdered by a man with a gun who shot her at her meet and greet after a concert she held. Many lives where taken this past weekend, but all of those beautiful souls are now living in this city of eternal happiness and joy, dancing together without any worries. May all of those beautiful eyes who were closed forever in this world be opened once again in this city. Wherever they are, it doesn’t matter because they are now happy for all eternity.

R.I.P. all of the people who lost their lives this past weekend and/or week. You may all be remembered and stay in our hearts until we meet again soon. 

Praise and love your life.

Stop Yulin Dog Slaughter Festival!

So I was going through my Facebook news feed when I came across an article talking about a “Dog meat festival”. Warning, as this post contains stressing images.


I was a bit surprised and decided to read it when I found out about this horrible event that will be taking place this weekend. This festival takes place in Yulin, a city¬†in China’s Guangxi Autonomous Region. Every year thousands of dogs and cats are tortured and slaughtered brutally in public in order to make some traditional dish that’s suppose to stave off the winter. According to my knowledge and the heat waves, i’m pretty sure that it’s not winter anymore but maybe in other places it is I don’t know but that’s not the point. Dogs and cat’s are cramped up in little spaced cages with about 200 dogs in every cage and transported by trucks to Yulin. These animals spend days without food and/or water in this extremely cramped up space which causes many to die beforehand, but the others who survive get tortured and brutally slaughtered in front of the other scared animals and in public in many ways. Skinned alive, throat slit, etc. Many of these dogs are stolen pets. Many of them still have their tags and collars on them which makes you realize that most of the animals are stolen. The owners must be searching the streets and putting up “Lost” posters when actually, their dogs are being jammed up in a cage and taken under horrible living conditions to then be killed and eaten.

Dogs being held in cages for the Yulin Dog meat festival. Notice how the dog in the center has a collar on? 

The HSI ( Humane Society International) has been fighting to end this cruel event. With 10,000 dogs slaughtered yearly. The Yulin authorities have claimed to not take part in this horrifying event and will not allow it, but the people who do take part in this will continue to go forward. Many people in China and across the world have been fighting to stop this, with internet petitions and many brave people from organizations and/or chinese residents or just simply people against this in general,  have been sent/going to Yulin, stopping these trucks by getting in their way with the loaded animals and not letting them go forward. They have been feeding and rescuing dogs and cats. There are many organizations trying to put an end to this, I will link them all down below along with the sites in which I found these images so you can go and read more about it.


But apparantly, this dog and cat slaughter also takes place in daily life in Yulin, with slaughter houses and dog meat farms being shut down over the years for animal cruelty and health violations since yulin was one of the top 10 cities in china responsible for human rabies. I can see that dogs are the ones that are mostly used in this other than cats, but they are both still innocent animals and they cannot be treated in this awful way. As an animal lover, with cats being my favorite, I feel that this is something that has gone too far and for it to happen annually and no way to stop it, it’s ridiculous. 11 million signatures from numerous petitions were presented to the Chinese government, who have been the responsible for closing down the slaughter houses and dog meat farms I mentioned before. Yulin authorities claimed not knowing of this event until recently, in which these past 2 years the number of slaughter has decreased, but it is still quite a big number. A dog isn’t a mans best food, it’s a mans best friend! Why would somebody do this type of thing? It is very sad and disappointing. This festival is leaving an awful mark over China.

Chinese citizens as well as citizens in other parts of the world are taking part of this to stop this awful, horrifying, terrible event forever. Please take a minute to go read a bit more about all of this and to sign the petition(s).

stop yulin

Links to Organizations:

Stop Yulin Forever:

HSI (Humane Society International):‎
Links to Petitions:
  1. –¬†The Animal Rescue Petition
  2. Shut Down the Yulin Dog Meat Festival!
  3. End The Yulin Dog Meat Festival
  4. Humane Society Internacional Sign the Petition against the Yulin Dog Meat Festival
  5. URGENT: Stop the Yulin Dog Meat Festival

Links to Information: These will take you to the sites post from where I got the information from.

Links to Pictures used in this Blog post: Please note that none of the images used in this post are mine.

First picture:¬†×336.jpg¬† taken from:¬†

Second picture:¬†×675.jpg¬†taken from: ¬†

Third picture: taken from:

Please take a moment to visit any site that I listed and/or sign any petition. If you can, sign all of them, we need as many people as we can and it doesn’t matter which petition you sign or how many, they all help out. Please help spread the word and save these poor innocent animals from suffering painfully. If you have a dog or a cat or whatever animal or is an animal lover like me, please help out. It only takes a minute or less to sign a petition. Every signature counts. ūüôā

Stop this animal cruelty! 

Thank you for reading.